My hometown has become 'Martyrs' Hill'

I was born in Istanbul's Beşiktaş district. I used to walk to my primary school from home along Barbaros Boulevard. I have been living in Maçka, in Beşiktaş, for many years. People sometimes wonder where I am from. Some assume I am from the Aegean city of İzmir, but no, I am from Istanbul, from Beşiktaş. My hometown is exactly this place, Beşiktaş, where the two bombs exploded. 

The former name of the area where the bomb exploded was called "Beleştepe" which meant "Freeloaders Hill," because you were slightly able to watch football games at the Beşiktaş stadium from the slope of the hill. Its name has now been changed to Şehitler Tepesi (Martyrs' Hill). Take a tour around the hill, and you'll find my neighborhood. These are the roads where I walk the most, the places I've lived in and the sidewalks that I'm familiar with, inch-by-inch.

 The two bombs went off in those places where I frequently take a walk on good day. One was 100 meters away from my home, while the other one was no more than a kilometer away.
 
In a powerful explosion that shakes the building, one normally throws oneself on the floor instinctively; I learned that that day, this past Saturday evening.  

Was I scared? Strangely, I was not quite scared. I am no longer scared. 

Well, the bomb went off very close to my house. If it had gone off during the day, maybe it would have exploded next to me while I was walking. I am more scared of writing a bad TV serial, or doing bad to somebody, like hitting a pedestrian with my car and breaking their leg, than dying from such a bomb. 

Apologies for my language but, would I be afraid of the … (Fell free to fill in the blanks with whatever insult you want) PKK? 

I laugh at their faces. Here I am, 100...